Breaking My Heart

If I was cold as weather in winter,

As hard as a bar of steel,

Then I wouldn’t have to feel a thing,

Like this throbbing fresh sting,

In my heart hurting so badly I cry,

Healing is a tricky process but I try,

To walk around with my head held high pretending nothing is wrong,

Thumbing my chest fast telling myself I am strong,

In this life I have lived so far,

I agree it’s mostly the innocent who suffer,

For I gave you my whole heart and soul,

Did almost anything just to please you,

Even set to give up eternity just to be with you a while,

Yet to you it was just a silly game and I only a guinea pig,

As soon as it was over you took a shovel to dig,

My own grave and burry me alive,

TORN APART

Thoughts of a man torn apart,

Between what’s right and his desires heart,

Determined to lean towards the former,

Wishing this passion could grow stronger,

Before evil desires of mine heart overshadows,

What’s right become chasing mere shadows,

The flesh is weak though spirit eager,

Certainly strength to fight is meager,

Thoughts of a man torn apart,

To indulge in pleasure or to remain alert,

To search for darkness or keep following the light,

To stay on course or loose sight,

To stay on the narrow path to life,

To pursue the broad road and end this strife,

Torn between the two,

Tell me what is a man to do,

Thoughts of a man torn apart,

Disturbed like a toothless flesh eating cat,

Everyday is a battle a struggle of which,

Is persistent unbearable like a rushing itch,

When will I these wounds of mine stitch,

Before they drive me towards fever pitch,

In this state of tepid liquid,

Am afraid I’ll do something stupid,

ANGELICA

My Angelica,

Most sweet smelling flower garden,

With all world’s beauty laden,

Warmth as an ostrich egg just hatched,

Your benevolence unmatched,

Your magnificence unsearched,

My Angelica,

Standing out in all earth’s field,

To you sunshine bows and yield,

For you great men swords wield,

Your eyes alone shine twice as bright,

Even the moon shies away at night,

My Angelica,

Raw and natural as if silica,

Surely glamour can only be your replica,

Your intoxication better than liquor,

Blossoming as roses only quicker,

What a wonderful kicker,

HOPEFUL LOVE

Once again it has happened,

Vulnerable with heart opened,

Here I stand,

This time hoping its forever,

Within me an earnest endeavor,

To fall hard for thee,

Expressed in words but only three,

I love you,

Beautiful as a pure white dove,

Flying in mid-morning sun above,

Your place is with the stars and moon,

Exquisitely bright most surely a boon,

In the darkness of the night,

Behold you what a sight,

To love you with my might,

Is all I want,

I pray this thing is mutual,

Not just another pointless ritual,

That the likes of you perfume,

To move on to a higher form,

I hope it continues to grow,

From a faint glow,

Into something much more,

To that end I implore,

My make to make it so,

Amen,

LIGHT IN MY WOLRD

This life has me corned my quandaries to it owing,

But amidst the quagmires you keeping me going,

The only thing in my world making sense,

Whilst everything else’s plainly messed up and tense,

You well know I’m full of strife,

Even so you still want to be my wife,

Ooh my love how pleasant how sweet,

Paying no heed to the little birds that brazenly tweet,

Me and you will never be we are headed for a doom,

Demonstrating how our love will always boom,

I long for that day I will be your heroic groom,

Put a ring on your finger carry you off to our room,

My warm and bright sunshine through the day,

Heavenly beautiful as the night’s moon ray,

Bodily features well complimented,

Fine mannered uprightly tended,

In a nutshell she’s an amazing lady,

Yes indeed my charming baby,  

WHAT HAPPENED TO US

We feel we’re both holding the aces,

But as it always happens in so many cases,

Our alluring emotions will transcend this game,

Honestly I think this is just dull and lame,

I utterly don’t get it am still here,

What happened to us dear?

We use to be so bright and breezy,

Now we are so busy,

Working the silence shunning each other,

I wish not to aggravate this circumvention further,

Let’s go back to the way it was before,

Am tired my heart is sore,

Absence makes the heart grow fonder,

So please let not our relationship founder,

I miss you and I know you do too,

It is best for us if we are two,

Come back to me I’ll run to you first,

Clear our minds unclench our fist fast,

Then open handedly embrace,

Also to all of our ill feelings erase,

ALL IN MY HEAD

There’s that moment just after sunset,

Before the city lights come alive,

It’s extremely difficult to catch it,

For it’s not only very brief,

But slowly creeps in unnoticed,

Thus truly golden,

That’s the best part of my day,

I like to go to the top of the building,

And seat on my stool,

Start staring like a fool,

Everything’s grey,

Time for my mind to make hay,

It sizes that rare chance,

To put me in a hypnotic trance,

Of a whirlwind romance,

With a girl I fancy,

Breathe taking as all lovely flowers in a pansy,

Fireflies glow off the reflection of her eyes,

She’s simply sensational,

We laugh jump and dance,

We hold hug and cry,

We whisper stare and kiss,

But suddenly ends the bliss,

When the first click of the light switch,

Kicks my head out of it,

Time to wake up and smell the coffee,

But there’s always tomorrow,